Hi

I've not been around for a while. I've been working through some stuff and not felt able to write. I get rather bad attacks of anxiety sometimes and they pretty much knock me out for a while.

I'm doing much better and wanted to share my thoughts on life for today. Something I've often struggled with is the need to do stuff all the time. I can find it hard to sit still and just chill out. I have various written 'to do' lists as well as mental ones, that keep me busy. I realise that a lot of the stuff on the lists is pretty daft and doesn't actually need worrying about now, but it's hard to fight your programming sometimes.

Anyway, someone once told me that we are human 'beings', not human 'doings' and something I like to remind myself of that every now and again. I rush about trying to do everything and forget that sitting and 'being' is a very nice pastime too. (See I do listen to you Mark x).

For all those other suffers of 'to-do listamania' remember the old adage 'what do you want to be remembered for when you die?' Do you really want it to be that you always had a clean house, never forgot anything and always baked the cake, never bought it? Forget after your dead, what do you want to look back on when you're older - the clean house and meticulous filing, or the fact that you spent time with loved ones, took time to stop and look around at this beautiful world and enjoyed life?

Now if I can just practice what I preach....